& i have been conquered. Normal people would be excited due to the fact their B-Day's only 8 days away.. Ive acknowledged the reality that i am not normal. idk wth's wrong with me these mood swings are getting on my nerves. i have a job i go to school i have great friends.. and a loving boyfriend .. so wtf is up man?! ill tell you Wat's up.. living with some one you know you will never get along with again .. i swear i dread coming to this place i call home every day .. i feel it straining me, i no longer have a social life ..not that i ever did for that matter, i cant remember the last time i laughed with out regretting it or had a " good time" without constantly asking " HEY HEY WHAT TIME IS IT?! " Na.. funny thing is .. i feel guilty for feeling down like I'm not suppose to be.. I'm contemplating on my social life when people around the world are contemplating their one meal for the week or their sick kid .. i miss my brothers i miss my uncle ( my true father ) i miss you Ricky =/ i miss YNES.. this joy full selfless person is now a smudged stranger someone i see from a distance....can i say i miss being truly happy? of course not.. Ive never met happy.
so i dead just teard
ReplyDeletei love you bitch i hate knowing u feel like this =/